Waiting on a heartbeat. Is anybody listening? We're waiting on a heartbeat. Can anybody hear me?

So I was having a conversation with my best friend yesterday about relationships, and my exes and things like that.

And we were talking about one of my friends who keeps going back to their ex even though they are horrible together and it never ends well.

And I realized how much of a good thing it was that my ex left my school after junior year because I probably would have gotten back with her even though we broke up like 6 times and had the worst fights and were basically just completely dysfunctional. And I think that if I ever saw her again I would probably start it all over, and it would just be this horrible cycle.

And I feel like I should be more upset about this than I am. But when I think about the year that we were together, it was actually one of the, well, not happiest, but most entertaining and least boring years of my life. 

She was my longest relationship, and we were a complete mess, but the more I think about it, the less I regret it, and the more I want something like that again.

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